I've always wanted to change the world for the better. I'm not sure where this impulse comes from, but it's probably something to do with reading a lot of science fiction and adventure stories as a child. It's always seemed natural to me that the world is a place full of problems, and that they can be solved with a mixture of ingenuity and dtermined hard work.
You can do a lot of world-saving on your own; indeed, that's often the most satisfying kind, as you can see the direct results of your actions in isolation. But it's hard to find opportunities to do so. Problems that have a chink in them a single person can exploit and solve them are rare. Most problems are large and don't have an easy fix (even a cunning one), and a single person's effort against them would be like trying to divert the wind by waving your arms.
So the most immediately rewarding means of improving the world is to join up with others who have a similar idea on what to do, and volunteer to work together with others as a group. This might mean forming a loosely-coupled team, like the contributors of an open-source project; or it might mean joining a more formal organisation.
As it happens, I do both.
On the loosely-coupled team side, I'm involved in the Scheme programming language community, and the Chicken Scheme sect within it; and I have a bunch of open-source projects I publish on my site, Kitten Technologies. Ugarit might help to save the world by helping it to keep better backups and manage its files better, Tangle might help the world not get confused with its cabling, Simple Graphics might make a tiny contribution towards teaching future generations to do awesome things, and if I ever have the time and money to really put some effort into it, ARGON might provide the world with a vastly more awesome platform to build software systems upon.
And on the formal organisation side, I'm the Cub Scout leader for the Cub pack in the village I used to live in. During school term time, every Wednesday I spend an hour in the village hall with two dozen kids aged eight to ten inclusive, trying to broaden their minds and teach them useful life skills. They are a lucky lot, in that that's all I do for them; some Scout groups give children an escape from abuse at home or other terrible situations like that, but my lot come from relatively secure backgrounds, and are well loved, well fed and well educated. Once a year or so I organise a camping weekend, too, where they can learn a bit more self-sufficiency, and have an exciting adventure with their friends.
All of the voluntary stuff I do is very rewarding. When I think about the sorts of things I'd do if I was rich and didn't have to work, a large fraction of it is voluntary work. When I had more money in the past, I actually hired somebody to write open-source software for me, and I'd do it again if I could. I suppose my interest in wearable computers is driven more by my own interest and desire to sharpen my skills than in any benefit to the rest of the world, but I'll still be publishing my designs for others to take inspiration from or to just build their own copy! Volunteering is also a great way to gain new skills, gain confidence, and meet new people. It's my default suggestion for people who feel lonely, bored, or stuck in a rut.
I'm under no illusion that I'm some saintly figure laying down my own interests in order to help others, either. I just happen to enjoy making other people happy, and also enjoy tinkering with certain kinds of technology that happen to be very easy to share, thanks to the Internet. My contributions to the world have generally been insignificant compare to many others, and I often feel sad about that - I feel I am spending too much of my time just keeping my family safe and fed (which is my first priority), and that the kinds of things I'm good at are unfortunately only useful in narrow niches (distributed data storage technology isn't going to solve world hunger on its own). But such is life! This year I am setting aside two weekend days every month for my own projects - for January, this is going to be spent on my infrastructure rather than anything directly useful, as I need to repair the roof of my workshop as part of the ongoing process of making it into a more usable work area, but if I have any time left after that I'm going to work on Ugarit some more (on the sofa in the house - getting an Internet connection down to the workshop is a project for next month).
Volunteering can become unhealthy, however.
I'm struggling with running the Cub pack right now; I am the pack's only leader, and it's more normal for a pack to have two or three leaders. I have helpers who come along on the Wednesdays, which is invaluable as I couldn't safely run the meetings alone, but I still need to organise something every week, and then be there to run it. If I need to take a week off for some reason, I still need to either organise somebody to take over and prepare the required information for them, or contact all of the families to tell them I'm having to cancel an evening (which I really, really, don't like doing). I skirt the edge of a vicious circle - doing something because I feel I have to, and fearing the consequences if I don't, takes the fun out of it; and after executing all my other responsibilities of the day, I often lack the energy to do things I'm not fueled by enthusiasm over, so put them off. That in turn increases the unpleasant stress and pressure the next day until I end up rushing it all at the last minute!
Volunteering where you sit down and do something you feel like doing is safe. Taking on a responsibility is a little more dangerous. I am under no real obligation to keep running the Cub pack - there's no contract - but without a backup leader, if I leave, the pack will collapse, and I don't want that to happen to the lovely kids. Not to mention that I'd miss the little blighters! So I press on, providing a rather less exciting programme than I'd like. I think that it's not a good idea to take on an ongoing voluntary responsibility alone; it should be done as a group, so that the workload can be shared more easily, and when a group member is overloaded with other pressures, they can temporarily or permanently reduce their contribution without major disruption - and otherwise tedious planning and preparation can be fun when it's done as a group. However, sometimes you start doing something as a group and end up doing it alone, or (as in this case) start something with the expectation that others will join you once it picks up some momentum, but they always want to join as helpers rather than taking over from you to some extent - or, alternatively, that you're bad at delegating because you're scared of putting too much pressure on them and losing them.
Speaking of which, I need to go and prepare something for the Cub meeting tomorrow...
...actually, I can do it in my lunch break tomorrow, and go to sleep now instead, as it's forty minutes past my bedtime already. A MUCH better idea. Surely.
Animals, Jean, Snow | sarah | 
Sat 19th Jan 2013 7:05 am | 
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